So much torture.

Annyeonghaseyo! Assalamualaikum.


Lol long time no see. I know. 3 moths of holiday but I dont write even a single entry. hahaha. The power of mereput ya know. Or maybe in exact words, kemalasan itu melanda dengan tragisnya terhadap diriku yang innocent ini. Huaaaa. cuti dah nak habes pun nak. Sedih butul. Amende la yang akuh buat sepanjang cuti ni , akuh pun tak tahu. Makan minum tidur kpop kdrama novel (kalau rajin) repeat for the whole 3 months. Sumpah sekarang pun akuh rasa banyak gila mende yang akuh nak buat tapi tak terbuat sampai sekarang. novel banyak gak yang tak habis lagi, padahal stok 3 bulan tuh cukup cukup akuh beli untuk temani hari hari akuh. Tapi, harem jadah, Nafsu membaca langsung tak kuat kat rumah. Sumpah ! Hari tuh kan masa akuh keluar ngan kawan terus ada niat " oh balik rumah nanti nak baca novel" , balik rumah = novel sentuh pun tak hahaha. Akuh terus hairan dengan diri akuh. Rasanya nanti duk kat universiti mesti nafsu akuh nak baca novels tuh membuak buak. Bahahaha. Time tuh sibuk dah. Harap tak lagha dah. New phase in life is going to start !

Im so sick of it. Baru tahu rasa isi upu tuh macam mana. I dont even know what course to pick !! So I just did some researches about those course yang I think kinda menarik. Theres plenty of courses yang tak pernah dengar langsung. Hmmp. I think right now I know what my path is, kalau dimurahkan rezeki dapat first choice. Kalau dimurahkan rezeki dapat result okay. Semoga harapan akuh tuh dipermudahkan Allah SAW. Kalau tak pun , positive thinking. He has a better plan for you. For me. For us. Human learn better from failures, not from success. Im so breathless right now. The result is going to come out this Thurday. Salam 6 hari. Or maybe, salam 5 hari. Takut, berdebar bila difikirkan. But akuh tak fikir sangat. So tbh sekarang akuh macam= okay okay je. Entahlah. Akuh malas nak pikir. Dan letihlah nak overthinking setiap masa. Dont do that guys. Kill your negative vibes with du'a , okay? Cuak tuh memang lah cuak. Kat sana sini orang countdown. Huaaa. Can I be happy this Thursday? I dont put up my hope too much , tho.

Enough pasal result.

Oh My Venus! Yap youre right, that drama. ( So Ji Sub is damn hot !!! ) It taught me that nothing is guaranteed in this world. Speaking about love and relationship. Even a 15 years duration of being together pun wont give you an eternal happiness if it is not the exact one. Thinking of that, I think my (stupid to even remember) heartbreak is getting better day by day. Move on !! Forgive and forget. And I think even if you happen to be standing in front of me pun I wont be mad. I mean, yeah, we are still from the same secondary school, we are still junior-senior kind of thing. Nothing will change that fact. But it depends la. Depends in the situation we are dealing at that time. Depends on my mood. Depends on the surrounding scenes haha. But trust me, Im okay now.

You even asked me once , but maybe, told me that on my result day , you would be there. You wanna go to school. Haha. WHAT THE HEcK . No Im not sad because it is nothing now, please dont judge. Just a simple throwback okay people. Wont hurt. I dont feel anything about it. And I think Im just..............................grateful? Because at least I wont be someone else again, just to look perfect on front of someone I love (read:used to) which I notice that I wont even turn out to be one. Alhamdulillah , feelings are so much better now. He knows better indeed. He knows me better than any creatures will do. And just recently I got some news that you asked me about "how am I right now" . Not shocking me, tho. Because I understand you very well. And no, I dont have anyone else or pengganti, like you did. ( he asked that question too through my friend ) It is so hard to open my heart again. Seriously speaking. My love right now is just for Kang Min Hyuk oppa, Kim Hye Seong oppa, etc etc haha. Cliche kan? Whatever.

Okay macam hambar je cakap sal feelings haha. My life now izz so plain. Nothing happens, and I am enjoying it but no memories to cherish. Biasanya masuk uni nanti ramai yang mula ada blog, ngeh ngeh. So maybe entries dalam blog ni akan jadi lebih berkualiti bila aku masuk uni nanti. Mesti sibuk kan nanti. Huaaaaa T^T Tak sanggup nak tempuh tapi siapalah kita untuk menidakkan asam garam kehidupan sebenar. Doakan akuh berjaya tempuhi kehidupan dekat uni nanti okay? Dah 18 dah diri ini haha. Dah besar weyh. Tapi still banyak benda depends kat mak ayah lagi. Depends pada orang lagi. Dulu harapan nak study abroad tapi......entah. Semakin tipis harapan itu ditelan confidence diri yang semakin jatuh berkecai. Siapa je yang tak nak study abroad , kan? Sedih pulak bila fikir balik. Sabar je lah mampu. Huhuhu.

Sebenarnya akuh masih ada kemalasan nak update sebenarnya. Tapi akuh gagahkan jugak diri ni, sebab rasa blog dah berhabuk sangat. Tuh pasal macam takdak arah je entri ni. Mixed feelings katekoo. Tambah ngan result, tambah ngan fikir masa depan. Semuanya jadi serba tak kena lah. Tengok apalah yang akuh mengarut kat atas atas tu hahaha.

English pun berterabur. T^T

mynn

Sing For December.

Assalamualaikum. Peace be upon you earthlings.

Kemain kan tajuk. Tuh senanya nak tiru lagu Exo sempena bulan ni. "Sing For You". Best lagu tuh slow je. Lyrics pun deep gila but lain kali lah share. So what are you up to guys? I totally knew that I havent update this blog for a very very very long time. Sorry guys. Sometimes Im too absorb my kemalasan ( omg nak tetiba teringat ada orang panggil akuh lazy ass. tak guna ngat :')) sometimes dah nak tulis tetibe internet buat hal , saket hati gellss la. sometimes, akuh busy. Yah you know the DEADLY SPM.  now its over yeayyyyyy i can mereput at home like a free bird yeay. gosh but you must know that sometimes , bosan gak. buat benda sama je tiap tiap. but sokayyy as long as i can do the things and my hobby, i can still continue doing it with smile. contohnya cam writing blogs and watch kdramas and reading novels and online until my eyes feel like jumping out from its socket :') yeah yeah i do love my after-spm lyfe. but maybe just for one month kut mereput at best macam ni. I thought bulan Jan ngan Feb nak kerja as a babysitter at my aunt's home taking care of my lil cute cousin but my dad didnt let me to --" of course, he didnt believe his eldest daughter can do that kind of work. siap perli perli lagi huaaaaaa. he even said if my younger sister nak kerja camtuh its okay but me? hahahahahha* and he laugh loudly. okay guys it was really saddening for me :')) but its okay i dont mind anw , at least i can focus to siapkan my driving license (!)

Actually there are too much things on my mind to be change as words but idk where to start. ya know, spm life is very very challenging. it requires you to be really strong indeed. but Alhamdulillah , i had passed it all. but i didnt say that everything that i did were .............. in the correct track. tbh, i screw up my exam papers , I screw all of them. yeah you can say that "yeap, everyone said like that after spm last last result okay je" but i knew what did i do. all of them. i dont know. am just hoping for the best. straight As is too far away now-depends on rezeki. cuak gila bila fikir pasal result ergh okay i will distract myself from thinking about it. Rindu sangat masa struggle dengan SPM ececeh. Rindu kawan kawan je sebenarnya. Rindu dormmates yang kerjanya kuat makan. Tiap tiap malam akan ada jamuan. Biasanya hujung minggu la, parents bwk makanan makan sama sama dalam dorm. Sambil makan tu bincang isu isu semasa ahakszzzz. well girls biasalah. kalau takde makanan sangat everyone keluarkan mknan masing masing yang ada dalam locker , then hah melantak lah. lepas semua kekenyangan baru lah move on study, buat homework. Wah rindunyaaaaaa :') bila lah boleh buat aktiviti tu lagi hahhaha.

Time time holiday ni well phone mesti ada kat tangan je kan. Stalk lah orang ni, orang tu. And i had realized that life dorang kadang kadang dah berbeza dengan sebelum ni. just nak cakap yang well, hidup tu macam roda. kadang kat atas, kadang kat bawah. ceh cliche kan but it is a fact indeed lah. perjalanan hidup ni panjang lagi. dan akuh pun takut gak fikir pasal future ni. kat manalah nanti akuh pergi. jauh ke, dekat ke. course yang akuh minat ke, tak ke. mana nak fikir biasiswa mana nak fikir semua borang universities. gosh - benda tuh yang akan akuh tempuh tak lama dari sekarang. dah besar myna, dah nak masuk 18 pun. everytime cakap ayat macam ni rasa diri ini dah tuaaa :"""") sumpah dah tua hahahaha. sedar lah. 2016 lagi tiga minggu kut.

and i cant stop hoping to. to have a new start. this is just the beginning weyh dont give up. untungnya dengan orang orang yang bahagia huhuhu. sorry im just a normal human being i cant deny this empty feelings. huh. he put her picture again, and they seems to be happy. the question 'why' still doesnt leave my mind yet-but they are happy. these stupid fucking tears still, still falling down through my cheeks, and, yes. they are happy. what are the other words to describe two of you rather than happy? thanks for walking out of my life. at least i know that youre not the one. the facts that im alone while youre so happy kills me-day by day. yes, im still trying to forget. the process of healing takes time-because im not the person who is really cheap in the matter of love. i hope i can let myself out of this but it aint easy. and to let myself out, i need myself in. in? yes, i mean to be really strong. okay wth am i writing this ok not cool

Since seven days ago, I've been in my own world not that super fantasy one but a world that I created myself. Last week, it was my 17th birthday. I did get lots of wishes from my batch mates and they were so unpredictable. I would never expect each of them to wish for me so literally it happened. Before I left the school, I requested to my friend (my fav girl in the world) to write a post to me and it was published on my birthday. I was really shocked. I nearly cried when I read it. It was so well written and she wrote it perfectly. I could never ask for more than her beautiful and honest words.

oh yes, and thanks for the words babe ( yang atas ni ) eheks i take that as a compliment hihihi *ketawa sopan*   but ya know, no biggie lah. anything for my friend ^^ ( dah cakap harituh i fell in love with sehun , nampak cam kau tak kesah so i can continue my lavh wit him yayerzzz ) 

thats all for this time. i know its a lil bit macam serabut tetiba emo tetiba suka tetiba balas pujian ahakzs sorry . i'll do better next time okay? stay tunedddddd guyz ! 

late night survivor,

(sbb tgk kdrama huhuhuhu)

mynn

So much torture.

Annyeonghaseyo! Assalamualaikum.


Lol long time no see. I know. 3 moths of holiday but I dont write even a single entry. hahaha. The power of mereput ya know. Or maybe in exact words, kemalasan itu melanda dengan tragisnya terhadap diriku yang innocent ini. Huaaaa. cuti dah nak habes pun nak. Sedih butul. Amende la yang akuh buat sepanjang cuti ni , akuh pun tak tahu. Makan minum tidur kpop kdrama novel (kalau rajin) repeat for the whole 3 months. Sumpah sekarang pun akuh rasa banyak gila mende yang akuh nak buat tapi tak terbuat sampai sekarang. novel banyak gak yang tak habis lagi, padahal stok 3 bulan tuh cukup cukup akuh beli untuk temani hari hari akuh. Tapi, harem jadah, Nafsu membaca langsung tak kuat kat rumah. Sumpah ! Hari tuh kan masa akuh keluar ngan kawan terus ada niat " oh balik rumah nanti nak baca novel" , balik rumah = novel sentuh pun tak hahaha. Akuh terus hairan dengan diri akuh. Rasanya nanti duk kat universiti mesti nafsu akuh nak baca novels tuh membuak buak. Bahahaha. Time tuh sibuk dah. Harap tak lagha dah. New phase in life is going to start !

Im so sick of it. Baru tahu rasa isi upu tuh macam mana. I dont even know what course to pick !! So I just did some researches about those course yang I think kinda menarik. Theres plenty of courses yang tak pernah dengar langsung. Hmmp. I think right now I know what my path is, kalau dimurahkan rezeki dapat first choice. Kalau dimurahkan rezeki dapat result okay. Semoga harapan akuh tuh dipermudahkan Allah SAW. Kalau tak pun , positive thinking. He has a better plan for you. For me. For us. Human learn better from failures, not from success. Im so breathless right now. The result is going to come out this Thurday. Salam 6 hari. Or maybe, salam 5 hari. Takut, berdebar bila difikirkan. But akuh tak fikir sangat. So tbh sekarang akuh macam= okay okay je. Entahlah. Akuh malas nak pikir. Dan letihlah nak overthinking setiap masa. Dont do that guys. Kill your negative vibes with du'a , okay? Cuak tuh memang lah cuak. Kat sana sini orang countdown. Huaaa. Can I be happy this Thursday? I dont put up my hope too much , tho.

Enough pasal result.

Oh My Venus! Yap youre right, that drama. ( So Ji Sub is damn hot !!! ) It taught me that nothing is guaranteed in this world. Speaking about love and relationship. Even a 15 years duration of being together pun wont give you an eternal happiness if it is not the exact one. Thinking of that, I think my (stupid to even remember) heartbreak is getting better day by day. Move on !! Forgive and forget. And I think even if you happen to be standing in front of me pun I wont be mad. I mean, yeah, we are still from the same secondary school, we are still junior-senior kind of thing. Nothing will change that fact. But it depends la. Depends in the situation we are dealing at that time. Depends on my mood. Depends on the surrounding scenes haha. But trust me, Im okay now.

You even asked me once , but maybe, told me that on my result day , you would be there. You wanna go to school. Haha. WHAT THE HEcK . No Im not sad because it is nothing now, please dont judge. Just a simple throwback okay people. Wont hurt. I dont feel anything about it. And I think Im just..............................grateful? Because at least I wont be someone else again, just to look perfect on front of someone I love (read:used to) which I notice that I wont even turn out to be one. Alhamdulillah , feelings are so much better now. He knows better indeed. He knows me better than any creatures will do. And just recently I got some news that you asked me about "how am I right now" . Not shocking me, tho. Because I understand you very well. And no, I dont have anyone else or pengganti, like you did. ( he asked that question too through my friend ) It is so hard to open my heart again. Seriously speaking. My love right now is just for Kang Min Hyuk oppa, Kim Hye Seong oppa, etc etc haha. Cliche kan? Whatever.

Okay macam hambar je cakap sal feelings haha. My life now izz so plain. Nothing happens, and I am enjoying it but no memories to cherish. Biasanya masuk uni nanti ramai yang mula ada blog, ngeh ngeh. So maybe entries dalam blog ni akan jadi lebih berkualiti bila aku masuk uni nanti. Mesti sibuk kan nanti. Huaaaaa T^T Tak sanggup nak tempuh tapi siapalah kita untuk menidakkan asam garam kehidupan sebenar. Doakan akuh berjaya tempuhi kehidupan dekat uni nanti okay? Dah 18 dah diri ini haha. Dah besar weyh. Tapi still banyak benda depends kat mak ayah lagi. Depends pada orang lagi. Dulu harapan nak study abroad tapi......entah. Semakin tipis harapan itu ditelan confidence diri yang semakin jatuh berkecai. Siapa je yang tak nak study abroad , kan? Sedih pulak bila fikir balik. Sabar je lah mampu. Huhuhu.

Sebenarnya akuh masih ada kemalasan nak update sebenarnya. Tapi akuh gagahkan jugak diri ni, sebab rasa blog dah berhabuk sangat. Tuh pasal macam takdak arah je entri ni. Mixed feelings katekoo. Tambah ngan result, tambah ngan fikir masa depan. Semuanya jadi serba tak kena lah. Tengok apalah yang akuh mengarut kat atas atas tu hahaha.

English pun berterabur. T^T

mynn

Sing For December.

Assalamualaikum. Peace be upon you earthlings.

Kemain kan tajuk. Tuh senanya nak tiru lagu Exo sempena bulan ni. "Sing For You". Best lagu tuh slow je. Lyrics pun deep gila but lain kali lah share. So what are you up to guys? I totally knew that I havent update this blog for a very very very long time. Sorry guys. Sometimes Im too absorb my kemalasan ( omg nak tetiba teringat ada orang panggil akuh lazy ass. tak guna ngat :')) sometimes dah nak tulis tetibe internet buat hal , saket hati gellss la. sometimes, akuh busy. Yah you know the DEADLY SPM.  now its over yeayyyyyy i can mereput at home like a free bird yeay. gosh but you must know that sometimes , bosan gak. buat benda sama je tiap tiap. but sokayyy as long as i can do the things and my hobby, i can still continue doing it with smile. contohnya cam writing blogs and watch kdramas and reading novels and online until my eyes feel like jumping out from its socket :') yeah yeah i do love my after-spm lyfe. but maybe just for one month kut mereput at best macam ni. I thought bulan Jan ngan Feb nak kerja as a babysitter at my aunt's home taking care of my lil cute cousin but my dad didnt let me to --" of course, he didnt believe his eldest daughter can do that kind of work. siap perli perli lagi huaaaaaa. he even said if my younger sister nak kerja camtuh its okay but me? hahahahahha* and he laugh loudly. okay guys it was really saddening for me :')) but its okay i dont mind anw , at least i can focus to siapkan my driving license (!)

Actually there are too much things on my mind to be change as words but idk where to start. ya know, spm life is very very challenging. it requires you to be really strong indeed. but Alhamdulillah , i had passed it all. but i didnt say that everything that i did were .............. in the correct track. tbh, i screw up my exam papers , I screw all of them. yeah you can say that "yeap, everyone said like that after spm last last result okay je" but i knew what did i do. all of them. i dont know. am just hoping for the best. straight As is too far away now-depends on rezeki. cuak gila bila fikir pasal result ergh okay i will distract myself from thinking about it. Rindu sangat masa struggle dengan SPM ececeh. Rindu kawan kawan je sebenarnya. Rindu dormmates yang kerjanya kuat makan. Tiap tiap malam akan ada jamuan. Biasanya hujung minggu la, parents bwk makanan makan sama sama dalam dorm. Sambil makan tu bincang isu isu semasa ahakszzzz. well girls biasalah. kalau takde makanan sangat everyone keluarkan mknan masing masing yang ada dalam locker , then hah melantak lah. lepas semua kekenyangan baru lah move on study, buat homework. Wah rindunyaaaaaa :') bila lah boleh buat aktiviti tu lagi hahhaha.

Time time holiday ni well phone mesti ada kat tangan je kan. Stalk lah orang ni, orang tu. And i had realized that life dorang kadang kadang dah berbeza dengan sebelum ni. just nak cakap yang well, hidup tu macam roda. kadang kat atas, kadang kat bawah. ceh cliche kan but it is a fact indeed lah. perjalanan hidup ni panjang lagi. dan akuh pun takut gak fikir pasal future ni. kat manalah nanti akuh pergi. jauh ke, dekat ke. course yang akuh minat ke, tak ke. mana nak fikir biasiswa mana nak fikir semua borang universities. gosh - benda tuh yang akan akuh tempuh tak lama dari sekarang. dah besar myna, dah nak masuk 18 pun. everytime cakap ayat macam ni rasa diri ini dah tuaaa :"""") sumpah dah tua hahahaha. sedar lah. 2016 lagi tiga minggu kut.

and i cant stop hoping to. to have a new start. this is just the beginning weyh dont give up. untungnya dengan orang orang yang bahagia huhuhu. sorry im just a normal human being i cant deny this empty feelings. huh. he put her picture again, and they seems to be happy. the question 'why' still doesnt leave my mind yet-but they are happy. these stupid fucking tears still, still falling down through my cheeks, and, yes. they are happy. what are the other words to describe two of you rather than happy? thanks for walking out of my life. at least i know that youre not the one. the facts that im alone while youre so happy kills me-day by day. yes, im still trying to forget. the process of healing takes time-because im not the person who is really cheap in the matter of love. i hope i can let myself out of this but it aint easy. and to let myself out, i need myself in. in? yes, i mean to be really strong. okay wth am i writing this ok not cool

Since seven days ago, I've been in my own world not that super fantasy one but a world that I created myself. Last week, it was my 17th birthday. I did get lots of wishes from my batch mates and they were so unpredictable. I would never expect each of them to wish for me so literally it happened. Before I left the school, I requested to my friend (my fav girl in the world) to write a post to me and it was published on my birthday. I was really shocked. I nearly cried when I read it. It was so well written and she wrote it perfectly. I could never ask for more than her beautiful and honest words.

oh yes, and thanks for the words babe ( yang atas ni ) eheks i take that as a compliment hihihi *ketawa sopan*   but ya know, no biggie lah. anything for my friend ^^ ( dah cakap harituh i fell in love with sehun , nampak cam kau tak kesah so i can continue my lavh wit him yayerzzz ) 

thats all for this time. i know its a lil bit macam serabut tetiba emo tetiba suka tetiba balas pujian ahakzs sorry . i'll do better next time okay? stay tunedddddd guyz ! 

late night survivor,

(sbb tgk kdrama huhuhuhu)

mynn