Rant On.

Assalamualaikum, and hye. 

So , its been a month . Not exactly , about a month la. How's life? Well, basically good. Basically . It's a wrong choice of word I know. I should say a total , okay. But I cant lie to myself nor other people lah kan. Sometimes okay  but sometimes I drown deep in my emotions, throwing tantrum to people, crying alone to sleep at night , in the dark. But that's rarely happens now la Alhamdulillah. That is not going to be forever kan , it's not the end of the world yet what. It's just a bad month . If we were meant to be , how can we both walked away from each other's life so easily? So I guess , we weren't. Pain tells you that you shouldn't do what you are doing , though. Haish stupid. I dont want to talk about this over and over . Not because Im sad , just .....it's a waste. There's nothing going to be same as before again . Im not gonna accept him the same way I did before. Or other boys. Enough is just enough . Luka payah nak sembuh . Kalau sembuh pun, parut dia tetap ada kan? It's not going to make any sense lah . Im sick of being hurt because throwing too much love and hurt. It's a real stupid. Fatal accident to my own heart . Menyampah pulak rasa. 

Im trying to be okay lah right now. Sibuk , kelas everywhere , homeworks bersepah , nikmati saat saat terakhir sebagai pelajar sekolah , bina memori ngan kawan kawan , fikir masa depan , exam nak dekat dah pftt a total thunderstorm , kem sana kem sini . Dont hv any time to ever think about my feeling at all . Kalau ada pun , phewww memang ada tapi camtu la. Malas nak fikir . Malas . But youre still on my lonely mind I must say. Tapi yang akuh tak boleh nak reach. Hati akuh tak faham . Akuh pulak sedar yang kadang kadang , pipit mane boleh terbang dengan enggang , kan? Dari awal dah rasa camtuh actually. I used to hve a thought to leave you without saying goodbye before , tapi entah kenapa tak terbuat . Blame my so called kindness. And then ... youre gone and we're just like strangers it's like all of this were never happened before. Tah la nak. Bosan mak pikir. 

Lusa dah raya weyh . Okay nk reach 12 am dah so esok raya. Serious , tak langsung nak ada feeling raya. Langsung tak . Rasa cam biasa je. Seriously just whyyyyyyyyyyyyy . HUaaaaaa. Sebab SPM kut, semua jadi berterabur macam ni. Selalu rasa insecure bila orang lain study , rasa tertekan sbb kadang kadang akuh tidur lam kelas T^T Macam. Macam phew. Stupid? yeah kinda. Sampai bila nak hidup macam ni pun tak tahu. SBP Trial less than 25 days ......how can T^T not high spirited . Everything is a mess . For me la. One of my bestfriends dah masuk college kut . Kolej Mara Seremban . Dapat buat IB , skip a year , she doesnt have to sit for SPM and her friends kat sane semua 18 tahun . Ya Allah bijaknya . While me? Still rotting with SPM . Lazy . In every possible manners . I should change that attitude . It wont lead me anywhere....and I hv so many responsibilities to carry on and I feel helpless right now. A total loser . The biggest loser ever ahhhh I want to keraiiii

Raya . It doesnt really fun now, I dont know why. Maybe because , everyone is getting far away and entah. I feel like every year I wrote the same type of words during raya season. How plain they are, how people are so ignorant nowadays ....fuh. I think I am ignorant . Iguess. 

People around dont usually give me an appreciation post . But I love to do that to people ! I love to describe their kindness towards me, the moments that we shared together , what I love about those people. I feel honoured to do that . But I want people to do the same thing, though. In writing, I mean. Because I can keep it for months and years . Im such a daydreamer. I feel like I want to forget all of this. All of''em. I wish I dont know you from the first place right? I need some inspirations. Oh and we go back to the story about that friend of mine, she's going to Cambrige kut. I am soooooooo wooowwwwww cambrigeeee wheennn can I jejak my kaki there T^T. Masa open your eyes harituh silap masuk group mentor under medic course. I should pick the biotechnology and sciences though. I still want to stuck with PHARMACY ! but kalau dapat medic, maybe akuh terima je . entah. tapi akuh tak sado weyh ! Cemna nak jadi doktor cemni. Pasal result exam lak, okay lah . I need to mantain it and it's quite hard lah. I wanna go to MTD for the camp but sadly I will stuck at school. Sambutan raya will be so plain without my girls :"") Sometimes akuh rasa kenpalah akuh tak pergi sekolah perempuan je. sisterhood is the strongest thing that ever exist. I Love my beauty queens ! *hugs 

That's all kut . Secara kasarnya , yang aku sums up. More entry are coming soon in this holids !

HAPPY EID-SHEERAN ok lawak gell-

HAPPY EIDULFITRI GUYS !
FORGIVE MY SINS , HAVE A BLAST EID EVERYONE ! 

mynn

Rant On.

Assalamualaikum, and hye. 

So , its been a month . Not exactly , about a month la. How's life? Well, basically good. Basically . It's a wrong choice of word I know. I should say a total , okay. But I cant lie to myself nor other people lah kan. Sometimes okay  but sometimes I drown deep in my emotions, throwing tantrum to people, crying alone to sleep at night , in the dark. But that's rarely happens now la Alhamdulillah. That is not going to be forever kan , it's not the end of the world yet what. It's just a bad month . If we were meant to be , how can we both walked away from each other's life so easily? So I guess , we weren't. Pain tells you that you shouldn't do what you are doing , though. Haish stupid. I dont want to talk about this over and over . Not because Im sad , just .....it's a waste. There's nothing going to be same as before again . Im not gonna accept him the same way I did before. Or other boys. Enough is just enough . Luka payah nak sembuh . Kalau sembuh pun, parut dia tetap ada kan? It's not going to make any sense lah . Im sick of being hurt because throwing too much love and hurt. It's a real stupid. Fatal accident to my own heart . Menyampah pulak rasa. 

Im trying to be okay lah right now. Sibuk , kelas everywhere , homeworks bersepah , nikmati saat saat terakhir sebagai pelajar sekolah , bina memori ngan kawan kawan , fikir masa depan , exam nak dekat dah pftt a total thunderstorm , kem sana kem sini . Dont hv any time to ever think about my feeling at all . Kalau ada pun , phewww memang ada tapi camtu la. Malas nak fikir . Malas . But youre still on my lonely mind I must say. Tapi yang akuh tak boleh nak reach. Hati akuh tak faham . Akuh pulak sedar yang kadang kadang , pipit mane boleh terbang dengan enggang , kan? Dari awal dah rasa camtuh actually. I used to hve a thought to leave you without saying goodbye before , tapi entah kenapa tak terbuat . Blame my so called kindness. And then ... youre gone and we're just like strangers it's like all of this were never happened before. Tah la nak. Bosan mak pikir. 

Lusa dah raya weyh . Okay nk reach 12 am dah so esok raya. Serious , tak langsung nak ada feeling raya. Langsung tak . Rasa cam biasa je. Seriously just whyyyyyyyyyyyyy . HUaaaaaa. Sebab SPM kut, semua jadi berterabur macam ni. Selalu rasa insecure bila orang lain study , rasa tertekan sbb kadang kadang akuh tidur lam kelas T^T Macam. Macam phew. Stupid? yeah kinda. Sampai bila nak hidup macam ni pun tak tahu. SBP Trial less than 25 days ......how can T^T not high spirited . Everything is a mess . For me la. One of my bestfriends dah masuk college kut . Kolej Mara Seremban . Dapat buat IB , skip a year , she doesnt have to sit for SPM and her friends kat sane semua 18 tahun . Ya Allah bijaknya . While me? Still rotting with SPM . Lazy . In every possible manners . I should change that attitude . It wont lead me anywhere....and I hv so many responsibilities to carry on and I feel helpless right now. A total loser . The biggest loser ever ahhhh I want to keraiiii

Raya . It doesnt really fun now, I dont know why. Maybe because , everyone is getting far away and entah. I feel like every year I wrote the same type of words during raya season. How plain they are, how people are so ignorant nowadays ....fuh. I think I am ignorant . Iguess. 

People around dont usually give me an appreciation post . But I love to do that to people ! I love to describe their kindness towards me, the moments that we shared together , what I love about those people. I feel honoured to do that . But I want people to do the same thing, though. In writing, I mean. Because I can keep it for months and years . Im such a daydreamer. I feel like I want to forget all of this. All of''em. I wish I dont know you from the first place right? I need some inspirations. Oh and we go back to the story about that friend of mine, she's going to Cambrige kut. I am soooooooo wooowwwwww cambrigeeee wheennn can I jejak my kaki there T^T. Masa open your eyes harituh silap masuk group mentor under medic course. I should pick the biotechnology and sciences though. I still want to stuck with PHARMACY ! but kalau dapat medic, maybe akuh terima je . entah. tapi akuh tak sado weyh ! Cemna nak jadi doktor cemni. Pasal result exam lak, okay lah . I need to mantain it and it's quite hard lah. I wanna go to MTD for the camp but sadly I will stuck at school. Sambutan raya will be so plain without my girls :"") Sometimes akuh rasa kenpalah akuh tak pergi sekolah perempuan je. sisterhood is the strongest thing that ever exist. I Love my beauty queens ! *hugs 

That's all kut . Secara kasarnya , yang aku sums up. More entry are coming soon in this holids !

HAPPY EID-SHEERAN ok lawak gell-

HAPPY EIDULFITRI GUYS !
FORGIVE MY SINS , HAVE A BLAST EID EVERYONE ! 

mynn